Huh?

Chloe: Mom, are all spies bad?

Me: Oh, no honey. Of course not. They are natural. They are all made by God. All things made by God are good and natural. Just because people don't like them doesn't mean they don't serve an important purpose. Each one has a different defense mechanism, they need it to defend themselves and for prey.

Chloe: But mommy, sometimes they kill people.

Me: Not usually. Only when they are stepped on or are being attacked. Most of them don't have that ability.

Chloe: Some are trained to kill and some are not?

Me: What? No they aren't trained. They are just tiny little insects. The venom is natural.

Chloe: What? Venom?!! Mom, I said "spys"!!

Me: ....(flat)...."Oh, I thought you said spiders".

I don't understand

J hurt me many ways, many different times.   He thinks that he is the victim because he chose to pack up and leave rather than love me and be my partner.   He would have killed me rather than pay one more penny toward our joint expenses.  And - after five years he was worse at his relationship with my children than when we started.  

I thought we were making progress with our talks and then one day he told me that he decided he was right about it all and I was wrong.  It killed me.   The thought of it now makes me so sick I feel like I can't breathe.   I just wanted him to be my husband, for us to have some semblance of a family or even a household rather than a single woman and her girls who lives with a man that sleeps in the same room as she does.

I wanted him so badly.  I loved him so completely I would have allowed him to kill me.   I still loved him tremendously the day he left.   He had already fallen out of love with me and begun some disgusting fling with someone else. 

He made sure he took sometime intimate of the medicine cabinet.   That has haunted me.

I still love him and it hurts me so terribly that he feels nothing more for me.

The world really sucks.

New Job

I have a new job, working in hospital administration now.  It's a welcome change and keeps my mind off sad thoughts. 

MY ETSY STORE

Please check out my ETSY store for great individual and unique gifts.   Items included hand crafted pendants and necklaces for bat lovers and cavers, painted glassware, jewelry, stamps, vintage patterns and more!!

Elections are over

As the election results are being returned, it's hard to stay positive as a Democrat.  The Democrats lost so many seats and it's just another thing to be depressed about.   But - - at least all those ugly campaign signs will be coming down soon.

Ten Things

TEN THINGS FOR WHICH I AM GRATEFUL


1. My children

2. This shirt I am currently wearing, I bought for $1.50

3. I am not crying RIGHT now.

4. The dishes are all done.

5. The kids don't have school tomorrow.

6. The Stephanies who are helping me through...

7. Candy apples

8. Scarlett


9. Somebody bought my bat boy plate


10. ...well, maybe right now, we'll leave it at 9 things. I am trying too hard to find a tenth.